Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Almost two months and nothing...

Well, it's been almost two months since I last posted...I felt sure we would be registered in a region by now but we're not. I have to be perfectly honest and say that I am disappointed. Sometimes I wonder if we will EVER bring our son home. I'm sorry, Lord for thinking that! I know that we WILL! The great news is that Lots of families within our agency are getting referrals and travel dates. Obviously, these are families who have been waiting since before Russia shut down in the spring of 1996, so I am thrilled for them! Even the most notoriously difficult region will be scheduling at least one court date soon, so this is amazing news! The only somewhat scary news today is the Putin has dissolved his cabinet, which may slow the adoption process in Russia yet again in the coming months.

Dear Lord, thank You for the referrals, travel, dates and court dates in Russia. Please continue to encourage the waiting families with movement in Russia- including us, Lord! We praise You that children who have been apart from their forever mommies and daddies will soon be coming home! Please watch over them during this remaining time of waiting and instill peace in the hearts of the parents. Help them to know that Your timing is perfect and that Your will will be done, no matter what stands in the way! Also, please prepare the hearts and minds of the children and the parents for the transition/adjustment process of coming home, as many of these children are not babies anymore and will be much more acutely aware of what is happening to them. In your precious name, Amen

Wow! How scary it must be for a little one to be whisked away by two strangers to an unknown house, in an unknown town. in an unknown country where people don't even speak the language you're used to! I can't even imagine! It's hard for our kids, who have the safety and security of mom and dad, to even change one little thing in their lives. I can't dwell on this issue too much because it makes me cry to think that my son and all of those other kids have to go through that! Yes, they will benefit in the end by having a forever family, but that doesn't erase the trauma. They don't even understand what a family is... I just have to trust in God that He will help all of us through that process and that He will heal our son's emotional wounds along the way. I know He won't be likely to ERASE the scars, though (even though He could). Those scars are what will make our son the man God means for him to be. Still, as a mommy, you want to control the situation and make all of the hurt go away. I need to work hard (even now) to step aside and remember that all children are His- my children are not MINE. I do not have the right or the ability to take care of the situation. And so, I must surrender to Him...

I surrender, Lord!

Love,
Me

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